Where do we go from here?
I am glad you are here and I truly appreciate the fact that you are interested in reading my written expression. Writing is another skill that I like to exercise. I hope you are having a good day and that all of your dreams are coming true.
Before I get into the thick of it, I want to let you know that the verse in the Bible that goes something like… “Be in the world, not of the world” is real. Hear me out…I am not a religious person and I have somewhat discussed my beliefs in different ways publicly but, I never dive too deep into it.
Honestly, what I believe is irrelevant. Isn’t that part of our problem? We model our thoughts and beliefs around individuals we do not know. I am not saying that strangers do not offer inspiration or anything of value but, I am saying our investments into others have become superficial and grounded in ideals without anchors.
Personally, I do not like what I see in the entertainment industry. I do not like their lifestyles and the sacrifice they make to acquire a superficial reality. As I have gotten older, what use to seem important is not anymore. Their lives appear to be another circus that we continuously purchase front row seats to.
For the sake of this blog, I want you to know I am heavy into my journey with spirit. I am getting back to a part of me that was always there since childhood. I can only suspect why in the last couple of years I have taken a deep dive into my relationship with source. What I can tell you is that… some things have to be nurtured and cultivated, especially when you are ignorant of what is going on. Fear and ignorance are roads to a dead end.
At the risk of sounding like many others that have said the same, something awakened inside of me at the beginning of shut down. Looking back, I have always been walking in this direction but it has been a journey. Life is a journey. If you knew the end of the story, would you read the book? If you knew the end of the movie, would you watch it? There is beauty to it if you really look into things.
You can only grow by going through. I realize that about my journey. If I would have gotten what I wanted, back when I wanted it, the world would have received a cheaper version of me. To clarify, I would have been entertaining, gone on to do some fun things, and maybe even something great. That version of me would have been of the world and not just in it and that is what I mean by a “cheap version” of me. Truth is, my creator has provided for me time and time again. Life has challenges but, I won’t complain. Spirit is still working with me for what is needed moving forward.
At this very moment, I find myself posing the question what do I do now? It is time for me to reflect. There is something going on with me internally and I do not have the words to articulate what it is.
No, I am not referring to depression.
Many Black creators are being shut down on social media overall. Freethinkers are under attack. I find myself struggling because I don’t really care for, or about Hollywood gossip. Most people do. I try to take what the masses are interested in and give an objective message or gear the message toward growth for the consumers of my content. From time to time, I will play devil’s advocate, then other times I just offer pure entertainment.
My Instagram LIVE has been blocked for over a month. This is about the third or fourth time this has happened. Instagram doesn’t even notify me of what the issue is. They mess with my account constantly. I have been going through this since before many noticed this was a thing. However, blocking me from going LIVE and constantly flagging me is new. In the past, my page was removed from Facebook and my reach was constantly being altered. I have always felt that since I have been trying to get people to think and pay attention, I became a target of digital media.
This may sound crazy to you. I know I am a regular citizen like you but, I am not crazy, and you will just have to trust me on this. Plus, I am not the only one. All creators that would be categorized as “conscious” are being messed with. They are messing with AA’s online overall. I am one to speak my mind and have a lot to say. Most people I know do not think as I do, only a few do. So, I have been going through the motions doing what I can and waiting for further direction from source. Where I am is where I am meant to be. There are opportunities coming up the pipe, I just don’t know what the bigger picture of what’s next is.
I am going to end this by asking you, if you have been watching and following me for a minute what do you think? What is your insight? What could be next?
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